Rock Walls

So, you know I kind of hit a wall last week, so I refused to weigh myself this week. I was comfortable with that decision- until this morning. When I went to take a shower this morning, I had a moment...so i weighed in. I was 219.0 lbs! :oD That's right! Here is a recap: Week1 (start): 237.5 Week 2 : 225.5 Week 3: 224.5 Week 4: 219 Total: -18.5 lbs Let's just hope that the rock walls keep crumbling so that I can find what is buried within.

Stubborn Stone

As you may have figured out, I did not weigh in this week. After only loosing 1lb last week, I thought it best to take a break from the scale. Have no fear- I did not drop the ball with my eating plan...although I did take a few liberties this weekend (1 on Saturday and 1 on Sunday). Overall, I am pushing this boulder forward. I am feeling a bit scared of the weigh in on the coming Monday; fearing that I will have, again, lost little to none or worse- gained. I hope not, but who knows. It seems like this is all very ambiguous at times. Well, for now all of my feelings on the matter are still buried within.

A Boulders' Bane: The Fragment

Yup...that's right, a fragment. That is what I lost this week. I weigh my boulder-ish butt yesterday morning and found that, despite my efforts, I had only lost one-1-uno stinkin' fragment/pound. from 225.5 to 224.5... uuggghhh. ...no words...No Words...NO WORDS! I wonder if I will ever get out of the boulder that I am buried within...

Between a Rock and...a ROCK!

...OUTRAGEOUS... I had two outrageous moments this week- and it's not over... First, I was in the kitchen making dinner, and I noticed an open bag of "backyard BBQ kettle chips" that were left over. i started to throw the bag in the trash, but decided to have one (yeah right)... 1 turned to 2... "1 chip, 2 chips, 3 chips, more"! What a disaster. After maybe 6, I found a split second of will power and emptied the bag in to the garbage... but after I realized that it was a fresh/clean garbage bag- I grab the first "questionable" thing (fabreeze) and sprayed it all over them. Now, any "ride or die" fat girl/boy can understand the need to spray them with something inedible... a HANGRY fat girl/boy is NOT above going in to the dirty trash and collecting a bag with chips in it; nor is a HANGRY fat girl/boy above going in to a clean trash to collect loose things (especially with the 10/20/30/60 second rule...clearly created by a FATTY). So, I had to make it so that I would not return for such pleasures as BBQ chips... Second, I was so damn hungry last night...I have not been eating after 7pm and, in general, it has been going fine. But last night around 12:45, I just about lost my mind... I was thinking about healthy choices: 100 cal. microwave popcorn, yogurt, just 1 ice cream sandwich (he he he)... but I just laid down and tried my damnedest to not think about my stomach (as it began to eat me from the inside out)... I was watching TV- which didn't help! I finally gave up when a BK commercial came on about the whopper... I turned off the TV, folded my arms in a very hangry manner, and did what my mother told me as a kid when I couldn't fall asleep- I just closed my eyes and tried! So that's it... in 2 days, I have had 2 annoying experiences. But, I am trying. I have my eyes set on some cute ass summer clothes... So, onward/forward as I fight to align my outer fashionista with the fabulousity buried within.

A Chip Off the Rock

It has been 1 week...well, it was a week yesterday, since I started my new eating plan. Generally, when I read someones blog/post, what I really want to know is if they lost weight and how much, so I will get to the point. I lose 12lbs, putting me at 225.5lbs; 75.5 to go in order to hit my goal! I learned a few things this week: 1. Food tastes pretty good without additional sweetener (I am not even using splenda).

2. You DO pooh when you aren't eating much.

3. Though I might feel skinny after loosing 12lbs, I am still fat.

4. Few people notice that you are no longer eating as much or as often...I don't think they care...

5. Protein Diet Mint Chocolate bars make me absolutely nauseous!!!

6. Muscle Milk Light is awesome!

7. Taking vitamins with solid food is a MUST. Losing weight is an interesting thing for me. Some people really need a group, or a friend, or to talk...but not me (which is why blogging is so out of character)... For me, the key is identifying my happiness, goals, desires and all kinds of other things that, at the end of the day, can be found buried within.