Back at the bottom...preparing for the climb.

So, here I am...almost exactly 2 years to the day; almost exactly the same weight; almost exactly the same frustrations. If you have read the story of the blogs inception, then you know that I gave myself 1 year (from 1/2009 to 1/2010) to get to my goal weight before opting for weight loss surgery... I started at 237.5 in 2009 and last Monday, January 10, 2011 I weighed in at 236.5...UGH! But, I made some immediate changes in my eating and started going to the gym. In 2009 I was doing a very drastic program with protein supplements and 1 solid/low carb meal a day, so the pounds came off in a serious way. This time I am keeping with the low carb situation, but just preparing my own meals rather than supplements. I missed blogging during the first week, so you were spared the ride on my "HANGRY" roller coaster...if you don't remember- read the entries from the beginning of the blog. I lost 8lbs in that week, weighing in at 228.5. There will be some "guest bloggers"...supporters of my journey, and any tidbits that I think are interesting... ...Let's get started on an upward climb, with some digging along the way, in search of the truth that is buried within.

The Worst of Times!

I am loving the fact that Maryam is posting! I think it will make for a much more "fun" time during this cleanse. Anyway, the worst of times is when the cleanse begins to work - i.e. you have to go to the bathroom. So the "climax" everyday is the salt water flush that you do....and boy do you ever flush with that thing- pun completely intended! So, Maryam had read that you are suppose to begin the cleanse with a laxative tea. So here I am, every the happy participant, drinking the tea in the morning... All day, I was good to go (he he he)- but then, as I drove home, I began to experience a rumbling of sorts. Now, one would think that because you are not eating there is little to excrete...a myth I tell you, a dang myth. I am feeling the rumble and, though I am not terribly far from my destination, I know that holding it was not an option. Like many of my fat days past- I celebrated at the first sight of a McDonald's. I will spare you the details, but all was well with the world after that pit stop. But, here is the rub of being a happy participant: I get home and, while on the phone with Maryam, take my bottle of salt water like a soldier. I lay down with the phone and the remote, waiting... I am scared to fall asleep because the slightest sneeze would ruin my 800 thread count sateen sheets... I wait, and Wait, and WAIT! Finally, I did what every mother tells a child before stepping foot out of the house- I went to the bathroom and tried to go... tinkle. Unintentionally, I fell asleep. Twice through the night I got up to "try"...tinkle. I was kind of annoyed. I can't take the mixed messages. Clearly, it was suppose to be one or the other. I mean, I knew that there couldn't have been much left after the McDonald's debacle, but who am I to question the reasoning of said cleanse?!?! Well, lemme be the one to tell ya- I will never double up again. No more tea! One is MORE than enough. We are on to day 2, and I am doing A-O-K. I haven't check in with Maryam yet, because she is teaching the leaders of tomorrow...I am glad I left that job yesterday! (luv ya, M). Well, I am off...

REALITY CHECK

Does anyone remember any of their elementary school class pictures???? Well unfortunately I am sure that my students will remember this years. Why? Because their teacher (me) looks like a stuffed porker :O( ....... Its Maryam, and this reality check is what greeted me this morning. We are starting the CLeanse because I just have to get it together. My body doesnt crave fruits, veggies, none of the good stuff. But for sure I crave pizza, ice cream, subway's $5 foot longs.... Hopefully this will help me regain control of what I allow to enter my body. Today is day one and it has not been pleasant:O( ALL I WANT IS A BITE TO EAT....... I mean anything.... Unfortunately my zeal went out the window with my last meal, but I;m going to try to stay my course. Besides, its way better to do something with a friend (even when she takes it like trooper ... u rock K) Thats it for now here is to reclaiming our control!!!

A New Adventure

So, as you well know, I have been on a search for the skinny girl buried within my fat ass. I must say that, though I have lost momentum over the past few weeks, I have lost 24.5lbs since the start of this little venture. This morning I weighed in at 213. My dear friend Maryam and I have decided to begin a "sub" adventure. In our years of searching for ways to be healthier (even if we don't use them...lol) we found, and have tried, the Master Cleanse. It is a 2 week series of cleansing ones insides. I have done it- it is CRAZY the stuff that comes out. You do loose weight thru the cleanse but it will, most definitely, return if you do not move to a healthy way of eating and living when you are done. Many people may not agree with a cleanse of this nature as a jump start to weight loss...but I have to tell you- that bloated feeling that may linger is built up S^%T...the cleanse gets it out. You really do feel better when you are done, not to mention a different perspective on food... lettuce tastes GREAT after drinking lemon, water, cayenne, and maple for 2 weeks! ....So, today was our first day, and it isn't so horrible for me. Maryam on the other hand is feeling miserable. She will be a guest blogger from time to time...when ever she feels like logging in. Well, that's it for the update...

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212.5 humph.

busy days

...ok, so no real time to write in too much detail, but i wanted to give an update. i weighed today at 212 lbs. slowly coming off...

Just Rocks

I weighed in this morning as I am accustomed- naked. So I have a more accurate account of where I stand. 215 even. Let's see where it goes from here.