Starring at a mountain...with a donut in hand...

...It has been a stressful week. My eating could be worse, but it could be better too. In the past week, I have on separate occasions had pizza (although it was thin crust with spinach...not AT ALL what I WANTED to have), about 4 girl scout cookies, 2 bread sticks with cheese, a a bagel. Now, let me be fair- it was not all at once, nor do I feel like I have fallen of the wagon... I actually felt bad about it. This weekend is going to be hard because I will be traveling and won't have as much control over the food options. We will see. Back to climbing, or digging, to get to that which is buried within...

... I really don't like the process of losing weight. I would much prefer to eat a bacon cheese burger with a side of fried shrimp... i mean fries... well, hell... BOTH! And cake. I want some damn cake and icecream. But, I am fat... yep... FAT! So I eat plants >:oI (that's my angry face) Anyhoo, I can't remember if I mentioned it, but I don't weigh on Monday's anymore. I have moved to Friday's because though I thought that knowing about weighing on Monday morning would keep me honest thru the weekend, I have found that it makes Mondays- which ALREADY SUCK- that much worse. I weighed in today at 211 lbs. So from original 237.5, that is 26.5 lbs gone. I can't tell that anything is happening. I am still FAT...from all angles! Onward forward...more to come.

Grinding Gravel...again...

It has been a while but, I am back. I have had a trying 2 weeks... a lot of things in my personal life have been sour. Because I am an emotional eater, I fell off the wagon- not in a HUGE way, but bad enough... so, I let myself be for a few days, then decided that it was time to take control again... I did the Master Cleanse fast for a few days. I actually set out to do it for 10-14 days, but I changed my mind. I wanted to get centered and refocused, and I didn't need 2 weeks of starvation for that. I cleansed for 3 days, then got back to the way that I was eating before. i weighed in today at 215.5lbs. So, to date, I have dropped 22lbs. My life is moving in a new direction and, luckily, I will be too busy and too broke to buy additional food...so I will pack my little lunch sack and that will be that. I am sure that we will see more things to come of those that are buried within.